Monday, September 12, 2011

A decade after September 11.


















Sunday marked the 10th “Anniversary” of September  11, a whole decade since the World Trade Center Towers went crashing down in 2001. I come from a perspective that may differ from some people. To my generation, September 11 was the first tragedy of the United States to have burned before our eyes. I remember that morning, as many probably do, sitting in my first period, US History class – it was my first year in high school. Before I came to school that morning, I hadn’t even heard of what had happened. Walking into class, everyone was just sitting there, watching the news constantly replay images of debris falling and dust rising – with only snippets of planes crashing here and there, like they were concerned for the nation’s sensitivity. Throughout the whole school day, teachers kept the TV on with the news playing. Although there were some teachers who were resistant, and wanting to continue with their lessons, you could still sense the clouds above their heads. Despite the silent chaos running through everyone’s minds that day, I came home from school not really feeling anything different. I wasn’t sad. I wasn’t scared. Hell, I wasn’t even shocked. Honestly, I just didn’t know what to think of it.


There was a lot of talk, worry, and tension in my school that centered around one of the students who was Arab American. She wasn’t a close friend of mine, but she was still within my same circle of friends. Before September 11, I had been pretty unaware of her race and ethnicity. Back then, I actually didn’t think too much about people’s race and ethnicity besides my own, which stemmed from my own personal battles growing up with racism as a Chinese American living in a predominantly White neighborhood. Anyway, She was a pretty normal girl in my book. Her dad even owned a limousine business – the same one we rented a limo from for junior prom. A little after September 11, I remember she came to school very upset and utterly terrified. She told us these officers came knocking on her door to question her dad about any involvement he had with the events that recently transpired. Of course, he had no involvement.

It wasn’t until college I fully understood the implications of September 11 regarding politics and civil rights, particularly for the South Asian, Arab, Middle Eastern, and Muslim American communities. Despite the lives that were lost on September 11, the attack stirred up a larger tragedy. The seed of America’s Islamophobia was planted that day, growing right into our rich history of racism and xenophobia that we still experience. When September 11 happened, many Japanese Americans came to the defense of Muslim Americans who were quickly becoming the latest target for racial profiling (which is nothing really new for any ethnic minority) and hate crimes. As a people who were condemned to internment camps by their own nation because of the fear spread by the Japanese government’s attack on Pearl Harbor, Japanese Americans understood that what was happening to Muslim Americans, was not right. There are many things that are done in this country with an underlying racism, and are simply unjust to human and civil rights.

It is always said that we are bound to repeat our failures if we do not learn about our mistakes in history. However, I encourage people to not just remember the tragedies of our history, but to speak and act in order to move beyond them. I quote Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. in that “our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.”

Thursday, June 2, 2011

A trinity.

Your praise is heard, yet I am not the Lord. My spirit is full, though filled with holes. I am not His son, but proud to be of a butcher.

Stay humble.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Belated to Yuri Kochiyama.



Happy belated birthday to Yuri Kochiyama, and happy Asian Pacific American Heritage Month as well. Blue Scholars, Bambu, DJ Phatrick, Rocky Rivera. Their music remind me to always stride in the face of both our struggles and accomplishments.

Activism, uniting the blind to bring back their vision.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Please stand by.

I am making an attempt to restore Love & Projection to its former righteous self. I was glancing through my Tumblr (which has also been quite dusty), and came across a dream I had written about 6 months ago. Although it was so long ago, I could still envision every color, every movement that had spiraled through my mind before waking up. 6-months old, and I'm reposting it here. It should have never belonged on my Tumblr anyway:

It was simply in reach as any other car door; jumping twenty-five feet up in the air, only to fail grasping the handle. I began to slowly fall as my moment of panic quickly shot through. The side of my head contacting concrete, and my eyes watching the streams of crimson flow away from me. My world shuttered into darkness.

With eyes open, I am sheltered by the morning lights.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Water among fire.

You are the beautiful dragon exhaling breaths of radiance, a light bringing life to the phoenix of my soul. I rise again, reminded that love never comes with ease, but is always created from two burning strengths. We may become tangled, but through waters of patience, tides turn to waves by the beat of our hearts; moving together among the ends of earth.

A time of need, a time of change.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

The Woes of Google/ Verizon and Net Neutrality.



















The io9 article, "How the Google/Verizon proposal could kill the internet in 5 years," sums up net neutrality pretty well:

"But guess what's going to remain on the public net, the place where you go when you don't have money? Certainly there will be educational resources like Wikipedia. But mostly it's going to be advertisement-saturated free content from major entertainment comapnies. And of course there will be many opportunities to give your personal information to Facebook, or gamble away your non-existent savings on Zynga games. (Sorry - did I say gamble? I meant "pay for premium poker game content.") Put in brick-and-mortar terms: There won't be any produce markets on the public internet, but there will be plenty of liquor stores."

Google/ Verizon are basically proposing to gentrify the internet.

Read the whole article, here.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Untitled 6.

There's a section of sky in the east/ that I hold in my mind that I hold dear/ by the way there's a place where I hide all the things/ all the clouds that grow pregnant with fear

There's a spot on the sea that reminds me of peace/ that I try and hold in my mind/ but it rocks me to sleep where the sun turns to glitter/ with a dream and a tear in my eye

I feel the pull of the moon/ and it's phases and you and your fancies/ as I sit on a fence/ there's a place in my heart where ever you are/ and as long as you're there I can never get lost

There's a spot on my head where the sun beats me down/ like a kid with a looking glass/ like some karmic revenge from all the things that I've/ burned in the past

There's a face in the night that I'm wanting to see/ but tonight she's hiding half of her face from me/ there's a voice in the room that reminds me of you/ as long as you're there/ as long as I have you/ I can never get lost


Goh Nakamura's Section of Sky

You are always in my mind and my heart.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Untitled 5.

I am lost between the fronts, but I am not striding just for me.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Sunday.

The world had risen, then there was me.

Friday, March 26, 2010

The Phoenix.

I posted a cut-up version a while back, but I wanted to revisit this quote in its entirety; from my favorite book:

There was a silly damn bird called a Phoenix back before Christ: every few hundred years he built a pyre and burned himself up. He must have been first cousin to Man. But every time he burnt himself up he sprang out of the ashes, he got himself born all over again. And it looks like we're doing the same thing, over and over, but we've got one damn thing the Phoenix never had. We know the damn silly thing we just did. We know all the damn silly things we've done for a thousand years, and as long as we know that and always have it around where we can see it, some day we'll stop making the goddam funeral pyres and jumping into the middle of them. We pick up a few more people that remember, every generation.


Ray Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451

Thursday, March 18, 2010

11th Dimension.


Asian Americans directed and produced Julian Casablancas' music video for 11th Dimension. I'm a little proud.

Friday, March 12, 2010

At the end of yesterday.

I am the glue, but I am not the gun.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Untitled 3.

What I did to deserve this/ I don't know/ To wake up to something so beautiful/ There's not much I can say that you don't know/ And words will try to show my heart/ But that's impossible

It's scary too/ 'Cause I know nothing's for certain/ And fate please don't pull this curtain/ I guess I've been April's fool for so long

Voice inside says "I don't deserve you"/ But I would never want to be/ One to unnerve you

I guess I'm trying to keep that stuff inside/ When I see your arms open wide/ I guess I'm saying dear never mind/ And love you never fail me anytime

I guess I had a fear of hope/ And I don't know a thing of miracles/ Undefined and vague and cold/ 'Til you came long and took me/ Places I couldn't reach on my own

My heart and mind like/ Treble, bass in all keys/ Scattered notes/ You make symphonies/ I guess I'm saying you make sense of me/ I guess I'm saying "girl, where have you been?"


Goh Nakamura's Y.T.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Valentine.


It's a strange thing to compare the feel of this day from years back to now.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Down.

I felt the aches that come with it; my chest heavy, but came no tears. I yearned for that release, but I could not be met. Only further festering was to be remained. I cannot seem to find light when I do not know how I became engulfed by the dark.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Cut.

Feeling it necessary to remove myself from the family smog, I stepped into the blood-chilling outside air. I curiously walked over to a normal looking police officer, who was oddly waiting on the sidewalk near the house. Waiting for who or what, I did not know. We had only begun to converse when a brown truck with a tan-striped side went revving by. Skidding the corner down the street, we heard a thunderous crash and a girl screaming in the distance. Without a moment of hesitation, I went sprinting to help whoever could have possibly been hurt. Jumping the hedges, I braked myself in mid-air as I saw the truck immediately in front of me. I collapsed to the hard concrete as if the ground beneath me had been ripped away. The driver leaped out of his truck, lunging toward me. The five-inch blade slid deep into my side. After the painful extraction, I reached to grab the knife in his hand, only for him to stab into the flesh between my thumb and forefinger. Trying to pull back and shield myself, he sliced about my left forearm and hand. The shield bled. I finally took hold of the knife, stabbing into the right side of his abdomen. Cutting severely into his chest, I did not look to see if he got up afterward. I slowly took step after step back to the house. The now seemingly odd police officer was nowhere in sight. I pushed the front door open with whatever strength I had left. Wandering around the family dinner party, I dripped crimson as I called out for my mother.

Waking at 6:27pm.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Boy's wake.

I look to forward days; your knees bent before concrete and soil. The place of your palms cradle his roots of aged, draping between fingers of youth. With earth sifting through, and sprouts waking high; he swims back to you.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Conflict.

And so it goes with machines. Astronomical sums are nice, but blood is best. Flesh is easier. Mind and will are excellent. The captain is all these. The computer doesn't know I live. The captain does. He looks, he sees, he interprets, he decides. He tells me where to go. And as he is my captain, as I go.

Straight to hell.

Then hell it is.


Ray Bradbury's Leviathan '99.

Feel of the leave.

For even the thundering rocket, which rips the soul on Earth, walks silently some few miles high, treads the stars without footfall, as if in awe of the great cathedral of space.


Ray Bradbury's Leviathan '99.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

So little to say, but so much time.



















Two days short of two months, stemming from a friendship of two years. Propelled too fast to be peculiar, only feeling simply natural. Our hearts enveloped within each other, to be warmed and held above the cold. Despite the surrounding noise, there is us. Among the specs, the bed, the table; we drifted about this plane. Only now, have we finally met.